Doubting one’s self is exhausting, counterproductive, and even destructive.

KAITLIN ANN TREPANIER

Advocate Innovator Writer Social Entrepreneur & Founder

Connecting The Dots With The Respect Principle

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June 17, 2019

Why Self Discovery is the KEY to SUCCESS on All Levels

WHY SELF DISCOVERY is KEY to SUCCESS on ALL LEVELS

If I knew the whole of me earlier, plus had the courage and confidence to be me all my life, my life now would look immensely different.

Flashing back in time, the three tribes I would have joined early in life were the nerds, the artists, and the athletes because I love to learn, am highly creative, and inherited a strong drive to be athletic.

If nurtured to discover and embrace my inherent talents at a young age, plus to discover the many different avenues my talents and passions could lead me to, I would likely have acquired three degrees. The first degree would be in English and liberal arts, empowering me to be the writer I did know at a young age I wanted to be, rather than the pressure to bury such a “foolish” venture. Another degree would be in the fields of humanities, social science and psychology. The third would have been a masters in business administration.

A lifetime later, the patchwork of my history reveals that though I did not gain the degrees, I certainly gained diverse knowledge, and yes, even expertise, in these fields of study.

Let me show you by providing a very different style of resume I created, not just for a job I applied for, but for me to put my experiences in perspective and to shed light on my inherent and developed skills.

RESUME

Early Years

  • “A” student in elementary school, but by junior high school, my unusual personality type resulted in experiencing social challenges at home and in school so I quit at age sixteen to marry. No children though
  • Divorced and remarried. By age 21, promoted to Assistant Manager at People’s department store, plus did payroll, banking, and closed store. Left because of area supervisor’s sexual harassment
  • Hired as part-time cashier at Krupps, promoted within a few months to full time and Head Cashier. Hired, trained, and scheduled fifteen part-time and full time cashiers. Closed and opened safe and store, balanced cash, banking, customer accounts, and accounts payable. Promoted to Executive Assistant. Proposed and wrote policies and procedures training manual. Management Team member that contributed to the business doubling in size and sales over seven years
  • Efficiency and effectiveness abilities empowered me to cut my workweek from five to four days to take on another role as an Aerobics Instructor. Later promoted to Area Supervisor
  • Worked with the owner’s chartered accountant. Acquired GED. Applied and accepted into Westervelt College, London for the Business Administration program

Middle Years

  • Graduated with Honours, awarded “Outstanding Student Cooperation” by faculty, plus received first year exemption from the Certified General Accountant’s program.  Served as Newsletter Editor and Copywriter, plus elected as Student Council Treasurer. Team member for the development of a sales and marketing board game
  • Relocated to Toronto and recruited by Levi Strauss & Co. (Canada) Inc. as the Financial Planning Budget Clerk. Responsible for assisting the team of three planners with the company’s five-year forecast by developing spreadsheets to download database information for ease of reporting. Also monitored and reported on capital expenditures
  • Recruited by Operations department as a Production Planner for the company’s contractors. For five years served as the daily liaison between several contractor production facilities across Canada and between several internal departments. Visited contractor sites in Toronto, Three Rivers in Quebec, and Vancouver to train contractor managers on updating our database with production numbers, plus as raw and finished goods auditors during inventory counts
  • Proposed, developed, co-implemented, and trained nine planners on the automated (spreadsheet) master production schedule we used to download database forecasts to plan production. Process eliminated one week per month from the monthly planning cycle. My efforts were recognized for above-an- beyond-the-call-of-duty performance in the company’s international newsletter
  • Concurrently worked with a psychologist to deal with early traumas. Encouraged to enrol into university. Accepted into York University Bachelor of Science program, psychology major, social sciences minor for part-time studies
  • Recruited as Human Resources Salary and Budget Manager Assistant. Also supported the human resources assistants and the HRIS database, plus processed executive expense reports, managed the employee service awards, and served as secretary to the job evaluation team
  • Proposed a team-building workshop to the director for the head office and production facilities’ human resources managers and their human resources assistants. Worked with consultant on the planning and delivering the two-day program
  • Also concurrently, for six of the seven years with Levi’s, served as volunteer Treasurer and member of the Community Involvement Team
  • Left Levi’s to pursue full-time university studies

Later Years

  • Essay writing and my writing accomplishments rekindled a childhood passion. Published, including professionally by the university, libraries, trade magazines, and anthologies, one of which was dedicated to Lake Huron communities that also included a press event with all the contributing authors and poets
  • Discussion with my humanities professor resulted in my leaving university to re-evaluate what I really wanted to do versus what I could do, plus how I wanted to help people. As a result, worked various low level jobs to take time and explore possibilities
  • Evening and weekend Mackenzie Gallery Storefront Manager for four years. Upsold owner and framer sales by providing customers with diverse and more original, expensive framing options for prints and original artwork. Responsible for customer accounts, banking, hiring, training, and hosting artist signing events, with celebrity wildlife artists such as Robert Bateman
  • Put writing on the back burner and focused on design and communication arts at Durham College. Switched to visual arts at George Brown with relocation to Toronto. Two courses are pending for my diploma. However, even before my art studies, I was awarded an Ontario Arts Council Exhibition Grant for one of my solo exhibitions. Sourced unusual spaces and libraries for solo exhibitions, joined art councils, and participated in juried art exhibitions. Started my own company, Kaitlin Ann Originals that resulted from my year-long participation in a self-employment program
  • Developed public speaking skills through Toastmasters and miscellaneous events
  • Performed in Ontario schools as an eight-foot puppet to a pre-recorded show
  • Worked for a family as a barn worker, groom, and exerciser with their competition heavy horses
  • Resumed writing when inspired to create a play, Charles Choice, for schools to address bullying in schools. The play is now part of my own company’s books and products and will be used as means for a production and video contest
  • Won Honourable Mention, Literature, for a Toronto short story contest
  • Founded two non-profits, Trees in Our Community and It is All About Respect Inc.  Discovered for-profit social business ventures are better means to independently achieve mission and goals. The same thesis for It is All About Respect Inc. now serves as the foundation for Connecting The Dots With The Respect Principle
  • Basic French Level I in continuing education studies

CONCLUSION

Even without conscious intent in some cases, I was inherently drawn to what was in my heart to do with my talents, but without a high enough “Respect Level” to foster the confidence to follow my heart, I have lived a life well below my abilities. Next to helping people, I have placed my most important passion, writing, on the bottom of my to-do list.

Yes, I do write, but I have tried to use my creativity in the wrong way in writing because I did not know better. I mistakenly thought my creative approach to format versus excellent use and knowledge of Standard English would compensate for my lack of confidence and skill development. My natural talent for spelling, always 100% in elementary and middle school, was not enough to compensate for the English Standard foundational knowledge I did not acquire because I did not attend high school. Yes, I acquired my GED, but instead of a high 80’s mark at Westervelt College, I could have achieved a high 90’s mark. With a solid Standard English foundation, I could have achieved more A’s and A+’s at York University for my essays rather than B’s and B+’s. As a professional writer, I would be more successful by now also if I had valued myself and my passions enough to pour my energy and focus on becoming a very good writer, and even a great writer.

Finally placing my passion and talent for writing on the same level as helping others, plus learning how to balance both with healthy boundaries has arrived. Yes, there is work to be done, but as the key creative, artistic director, founder, and president for my social business venture, Connecting The Dots With The Respect Principle, and its vast bank of intellectual capital I have and have yet to create means investing in the company’s primary asset, me as the writer and source of all its intellectual capital, is top priority as is writing for anyone with the same passion to help people of all ages.

Having the degrees to validate my knowledge would have opened more doors sooner, but the knowledge, experience, and expertise I have gained, regardless of the manner I have gained them, will open the right doors and the work I set out to do will still be accomplished because that is how I am built.

KAITLIN ANN TREPANIER

Advocate Innovator Writer Social Entrepreneur & Founder

Connecting The Dots With The Respect Principle

Smashwords interview @  www.smashwords.com

© All Rights Reserved 2014-2019 

May 21, 2019

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When “Negative” is a Good Thing!

Being positive is a good thing because positive thinking helps us overcome obstacles, keeps us moving forward and empowers us to meet new challenges head on … makes us bold, brave, courageous and wonderfully alive!

Yet a “Negative” is also a good thing when tests come back and the “Negative” means all is well.

The other time “Negative” is a great thing is like today when I received the “Negative” on my Vulnerable Sector Check so I can start volunteering in Kincardine. Anything but a “Negative’ would have been a surprise but just yesterday I was reading in the Owen Sun Times that the Canadian Civil Liberties Association has come out with a report concluding “Police forces across the country are running millions of record checks per year and are disclosing information that goes far beyond convictions and formal findings of guilt. (Alan Shanoff, Owen Sound Sun Times).

If you have seen Robert Redford’s latest film, The Company You Keep, you will understand why the “Negative” is important to me. For five years, I shared an apartment in Toronto with a man I had met while living in Oshawa. We were both struggling to get back on our feet after being beaten down by a number of personal tragedies. He had just lost his girlfriend to cancer and the husband the had been separated from her returned during her illness and kept my friend from his girlfriend and even from her funeral.

We dated for a few months, but I knew quickly he was not someone for me to have a relationship with. Several months later, we met again briefly and I discovered that the rooming house he had been sharing with an old friend had become derelict. The “respected” owner had drug problems and a variety of legal problems. The house had become a shambles. What was once an old estate home had quickly turned into a pit with no hydro and no running water plus other problems. Dishes and garbage hid the small kitchen from view. The upstairs shared bathroom between three men reeked from the urine puddles on the floor. Tucked in his room, amongst all his theatre paraphernalia, the shell of a man I had met several months ago sat as immobile as the huge puppet heads surrounding him.

Recently moved from a small room in a “rooming house” to a basement apartment I spent hours cleaning and painting, I could not wait to find a decent apartment to share. I thought we could help each other get back on our feet. I already knew I wanted nothing more from him than friendship, someone to come home to, someone to talk to … who understood how it felt to fall so far and how difficult it felt trying to regain footing.

Within months he regained some of his composure and became driven to move back to Toronto; the place he had called home since his teenage years before his move to Pickering to live with his girlfriend and work near her. For five years, we shared a place on the far west end of Toronto and though a few times we tried to be more than friends, it never lasted, especially as I was discovering some of his dark secrets … secrets that made me pull further and further away though we were sharing the same living space simply because I wanted to move forward with my life and he was stuck in his past; angry and bitter and not caring much how his words and actions affected other people.

Like Redford in the film The Company You Keep who was judged guilty of an event because of his known association with people, I later realized I had been too, but not during the time I shared the space with him. I did not think I was being judged for the company I had kept till I finally moved away and then heard people’s comments about him and me. What astounded me more was the realization that people just could not seem to understand those “cast aside” by society gravitate towards each other because they have been cast aside … rejected first usually for differences and then later for things they may do in their pain of rejection.

The problem is without a high enough RESPECT LEVEL developed at a young age, rejection devastates people, causing them to often turn to others rejected and depending on the people they then connect with, their lives can become a vortex filled with things they can’t see or don’t want to see … just because they want someone to see them, hear them …

Stories reveal the countless number of people who later admitted they sensed something was more wrong than they thought, but for whatever reason, they stayed and stayed and stayed till they became the collateral damage of lives gone wild. When the parade of girlfriends started to arrive in the small apartment, I could finally use the excuse that it was too crowded for three to live in when the last girlfriend arrived along with a steady stream of her belongings.

Eager to raise my own RESPECT LEVEL to get out from the darkness my life had become filled with, I finally left amidst a violent stream of dialogue that lasted several months and included a visit to a police station to consider options. But I felt so sorry for the broken man who seemed unable to move past his pain and I just let time handle the problems he poured into my email and cell phone. Fortunately, I knew better when I left to make sure I had moved several hours away and then only five months later returned to Kincardine; the place I had left at age twenty-nine filled with the hope of a new, better and successful life.

A lot happened while I was away from here … business college, some university, arts college, a few awards, seven years with a progressive international company and much more great stuff, but I realized yesterday after reading the Owen Sound Sun Times article that the way police were gathering and providing information, I was also thinking about Redford and the company I had kept and the impact it could have on me and my goals if my friendship and sharing of a home for five years with someone who perhaps had done things I was not even aware of … things that could have marred my own goals of developing a higher RESPECT LEVEL for myself as well as for others.

I am glad I was able to be there for my friend yet I am also glad I finally found the strength to no longer keep company with him. And today, when I picked up the “Negative” Vulnerable Sector Check, I was thrilled and grateful I left when I did to see his company ultimately did not impair my reputation.

Being alone, learning how to treat one’s self more respectfully means I will attract people who will also treat me more respectfully … because I will no longer accept anything less … because I am learning I do not have to. As wonderfully said in the 80’s cult classic film, Some Kind of Wonderful, “I would rather be alone for the right reason than be with someone for the wrong reason.” Ditto.

And though I have had a few years in my own places since then, for now I am glad to be sharing my living space with my brother who helps fill that lonely space I sometimes find myself in … till the next phase of my life leads me elsewhere.

June 6, 2014

Kaitlin A. Trepanier
http://www.kaitlinatrepanier.com

All rights reserved by KAITLIN A. TREPANIER/ DARK HORSES PRODUCTIONS … Creative Writer, Visual Artist and The RESPECT Specialist, architect of the global initiative Connecting the Dots … with The RESPECT PRINCIPLE … because every child … every person … should know, by their own experience, they are valued … RESPECTED.

Karma, Reaping What We Sow or Lifetime Prisoners to Disrespect Philosophy Thinking?

What if what is accepted as karma … getting back what you gave … reaping what you sow … really is a fallacy based on the Disrespect Philosophy, the premise no one or nothing is valuable unless some one or some group says so?

Not that I am suggesting karma or reaping what you sow does not happen … spiritually and scientifically, both are proven by research and personal experience, my own included.

What I am asking us all to reconsider is the long-term effect of believing as we do instead of recognizing that living in a world driven by the unconscious belief, the Disrespect Philosophy, we may experience karma or reaping what we sow … repeatedly, because when we don’t change our negative belief about the karma or what we reaped as only an effect … a temporary one … we become prisoners of such thinking and will continue to experience over and over and over the same karma … the same reaping … which will reinforce our negative thinking and the negative thinking and judgment of others about us … thereby constantly reinforcing the Disrespect Philosophy that keeps individuals, families, communities, cultures and nations, including our global nation, prisoners of a core belief that has imprisoned us, as history shows, for centuries.

Breaking free results from becoming aware of what one’s core beliefs are … as reflected by the results we generate … and then doing our work to change our thinking to generate new results by new actions … breaking the karmic and harvesting cycle of what we once sowed to reap the benefits of our new seeds.

The majority of us are driven by what has been driving humanity since the beginning of time whether you look at it from a spiritual perspective or from a rationale, intellectual, scientific perspective. The Bible calls Satan the deceiver … one who lies about who people are as children of God. The deceiver from a scientific, intellectual rationale perspective I call the Disrespect Philosophy, which as humankind’s history and presence show, we are to treat no one with respect unless we or someone else has decided such a person or group is worthy of being respected … valued.

The opposite, empowering, compassionate as well as logical and practical rationale is the Respect Philosophy, which I renamed as The RESPECT PRINCIPLE simply because a principle means a foundational or core belief. Recognizing the results we and the world generate based on our global unconscious belief is the first step. Raising one’s personal RESPECT LEVEL is the next step because when our own RESPECT LEVEL rises, as I have experienced firsthand, so do results we then generate, reflect our reaping new growth, breaking free of the karma from the negative thinking that has shaped our lives.

We all fall down because we all make mistakes … that is if we are living, taking chances and risks to keep learning and growing … which means sometimes we fall or fail. The Disrespect Philosophy or Satan, whatever your belief, will do their best to keep you down and imprisoned till what’s left of your life is but a shadow of what we can become … and I believe with all my heart that most of us are so much more than what we have come to believe … regardless of the how and why.

Today, I say to you … you are so much more. I know this because I have been a prisoner of a low RESPECT LEVEL for most of my life … valuing other people more than myself, putting their needs first … but I firmly believe we are all valuable in our own unique ways and that when we discover what those ways are, we create the best life for our self and therefore have our best self to share with the world … and that together, there is nothing that will stop us from finally breaking free so we can create a better world … the likes of which has not yet been seen in humanity’s time.

So, what is holding you prisoner? Or are you one of the fortunate few already free?

Regardless, bravo to you, for making the changes you need to be who you are destined to be!

February 15, 2014

Kaitlin A. Trepanier
http://www.kaitlinatrepanier.com

All Rights Reserved by DARK HORSES PRODUCTIONS/KAITLIN A. TREPANIER, Getting YOU the RESPECT YOU Want … Connecting the Dots … with The RESPECT PRINCIPLE Developer, Author, Speaker, Playwright, Altruistic Entrepreneur, and Human Rights Activist <strong … because every child … every person … should know, by their own experience, they are valued … RESPECTED.

Thought Food of the Day … How do you keep the balance between confidence, assuredness and boldness … pride and arrogance?

Thought Food of the Day

Thinking about the balance needed to be an artist, writer or entrepreneur … there seems to be a fine line between being confident, assured and bold in displaying and promoting one’s creations, regardless of the product or service, and being considered arrogant and prideful … yet, people who are job searching in order to work for someone else … for someone who had started a business they now want to work for … are counselled to demonstrate confidence, assuredness and boldness … so I’m wondering why it seems to be more acceptable to sell yourself to get a job or promote some other person’s creativity or thoughts, but not so acceptable when you’ve created something of your own … be it an artistic creation, something written or some other product or service … just some considerations as I work on my own balancing act.

Of course, I am also wondering … What are your thoughts on this subject?

January 27, 2014

Kaitlin A. Trepanier
http://www.kaitlinatrepanier.com

All Rights Reserved by DARK HORSES PRODUCTIONS/KAITLIN A. TREPANIER, Getting YOU the RESPECT YOU Want … Connecting the Dots … with The RESPECT PRINCIPLE Developer, Author, Speaker, Playwright, Altruistic Entrepreneur, and Human Rights Activist … because every child … every person … should know, by their own experience, they are valued … RESPECTED.

The RESPECT PRINCIPLE Transparency Benefit … An Expose Revealing the Damage Caused by Ignorance, Prejudice and Gossip

This is just one example, a very personal story, of what can and does go wrong in a world driven by our global Disrespect Philosophy and as a result, the long journey required to reverse the negative conditioning and experiences that not only disrespects all involved, but often causes irreparable harm that for others may never be resolved. Thankfully for me, overcoming and resolution are happening in my life … though not because I see myself as more fortunate than others, but simply because it is part of my vocation to experience what I have, learn what I can from it and write about it in order to help other people.

September 25, 2013

To My Creditors:

I am sorry that I owe you money, but I will gladly repay what I owe you with interest … when I am generating enough income to restore and keep myself in good health, so I can not only look after myself and my Dad, but also all my responsibilities, including debts incurred over the past year, plus hiring the extra care he needs when I am not available during his remaining months. In the meantime, I respectfully request you save your business money by informing your accounts department to not waste time or money with repetitive calls or mail outs since, with the exception of two companies so far, most calls and attempted conversations have been filled with disrespect and bullying behavior, neither of which will be successful in securing what you want till I have the time and energy to generate above poverty wages to pay the debt and accrued interest. To further encourage you to approve my request to stop the bullish harassment, I am providing you with a synopsis of events that led to the current circumstances.

To start off, as for our Dad, we are surprised he has persevered these past fourteen months considering the changes in his body and mind, but we also recognize that with all the falls on his head he has experienced in the past ten months, his skull will only take so much before it finally yields and he dies.

But backing up, a series of events in my early thirties, catapulted me from being a successful woman, earning $50,000 a year while also attending York University to become a psychologist, but who discovered in her second year she wanted to help people as a writer to a very wounded, jaded, hurt, angry and bitter woman who lost all her confidence and the little self-worth she had and took to drifting from many low-paying and/or temporary jobs in between studying art and staying away from people because of being shell shocked by the responses from people close to her when she decided to make some life-altering choices. The story goes back even further, which though interesting, is not necessary for you to read now, though you may desire to when it is presented in my next non-fiction book, DARK HORSES … which really isn’t just about me, but about many people and their experiences in the world we’ve created.

The knowledge of all this is important and relevant because rather than have assumptions made about me, this synopsis explains my lack of wealth before I moved back to Kincardine to help with my Dad and his life-taking diseases. I accepted a low-paying job and moved into an apartment to be near to him and his wife to pay for my cost of living, but I did not expect to also have to contribute so much financially to my Dad’s care, including paying for gas for his car to take him where he needed to go, plus for things he needed during his life transition from his home to a retirement home and then to the nursing home he resides in now.

To increase my income, I tried to launch a project I had been working on for several years and to help pay for the anticipated and related travel costs, I applied for an American Express card so I could get to the places I expected I would need to get to in order to present my work, the Connecting the Dots … with The RESPECT PRINCIPLE book or talk. This was anticipated because by proposal only, I had garnered the interest of a Canadian and an American publisher for publication of not only the book mentioned above, but also of the complementary non-fiction, DARK HORSES, both of which still needed to be written at the time.

Unfortunately, with the job I was doing, the physical strength needed and that I was working on rebuilding, the time needed to be with my Dad and the increasing costs, I did not have the time to focus and complete the above work, so I was not able to generate the income needed to pay off the charge card, plus I had accepted credit cards that though they helped out financially at the time, have since become debts I have not been able to keep up with by earning just above minimum wage, that is, when I could work.

By the end of January 2013, I had to quit my job so I could be more available for my Dad because the retirement home he was living in wanted to charge extra money to provide the attention he needed so he would be safe, but he, nor we, had the money to pay for such service. We tried to get the benefit from his union, but the “qualifiers” (which I can explain more fully at your request) has made those benefits inaccessible.

By Easter Sunday of 2013, the retirement’s home way of managing father was to get approval to overmedicate him, which they did. As a result, instead of walking his normal route, he wandered off another way and was only found at after 7 pm when the people whose property he had ventured and became incapacitated upon, discovered him and called the ambulance. Right now, we are searching for a lawyer, who works on contingency, to sue the home for neglect because they did not call me, as they did for all other reasons, to inform me our Dad had not shown up for supper. Nor did they call after supper, which is even more unusual because he sat at a table where three of the four required a staff member’s assistance to eat and where Dad was placed because he needed the constant encouragement to sit down and eat instead of getting up to walk. How they “realized” Dad was missing was when my sister showed up from out of town unexpectedly asking for my Dad. After quickly searching the home, my sister and her daughter drove twenty minutes around the village looking for my Dad, but returned to the home without success. While discussing options with the nurse in charge, both saw an ambulance race by and they followed it, discovering my Dad as he was being lifted from the ground, his clothes soaked from a fall in a snow-melt pond, the fabric and flesh ripped off of his knee by the gravel he had been pushing his knee against for hours as he struggled to get up. He was in deep shock, pain and experiencing hypothermia.

I would say needless, but that isn’t true or I would not be writing this letter that the “incident” resulted in a change of plans for Dad’s care; one that has incurred even additional personal costs of money and time that have also been prohibitive in generating more income and debt repayment.

After his stay in the hospital, my brother and I had to quickly choose to relocate him to a second choice nursing home that was further away. Within two weeks, his new home, now a nursing/long-term care home called to inform us they did not have the staff budget to manage his special needs of walking past exhaustion that has resulted in 13 falls in the past 10 months that we are aware of, several of which required emergency care via an ambulance, most of which have resulted in blows to his head, either by falling on his face or smashing the back of his head, often requiring staples or sutures for his injury. As a result, I’ve had to be available at the drop of a hat to fulfill the care the home cannot provide, plus ensure he was what he needs, take his wife to visit him, keep my brother informed, make and take him to appointments, pick him up at the hospital, pay for gas to get to him, etc. etc. etc.

Add to his injuries and combined illnesses, our Dad is also trying to adapt to living in a nursing home without his wife, who, not only because of her own health challenges and fears, refused to move with him in July of 2012 and demanded our family have our Dad removed from their home. Till then, our Dad had lived with her for 27 years. Prior to that, my Dad lived with my mother for almost 25 years; prior to that my Dad lived with his parents, so he is also dealing with the shock of being abandoned by his wife and since we can no longer visit as easily and readily, by his family.

Additionally, due to complications from my childhood and during my Dad and Mom’s separation, my Dad and I were estranged for most of the years he lived with his second wife, so being back here to take care of my Dad has been necessary in many ways for us both.

Almost twenty years ago, after a series of “unfortunate events” I caved under embarrassment, shame, guilt, a huge lack of confidence and a very low Respect Level for myself and as a result, for others, I did not stand up and take good care of myself or my responsibilities … because I didn’t believe I could. Even when the Bankruptcy Trustee told me to move west and get back on my feet and then pay off what I owed, the psychological damage was so deep I did not have the confidence or courage so I filed for bankruptcy and hid away like some criminal. In my naivety, I also made the decision with no real understanding of the consequences to follow me for years.

I am telling you this because you need to know who I am and not who or your employees may have judged me to be by my past poor choices and current circumstances. That is not who I am. I am not that cowering girl/woman any longer trying to run and hide away because I don’t know what to do or don’t believe in myself and my abilities to make things right … instead I am a healed, confident woman who is doing her best with what I have to work with to make her Dad’s remaining months the best I can for him … and for myself.

Several weeks ago, I had to quit yet another part-time, minimum wage job I had for less than three months because I had to leave several times during my shifts to get to my Dad who had fallen again, again and again. I also need to move out of my brother’s basement, which I had to move into last May when I could no longer afford to pay rent, and move close to Dad in Lucknow so getting to him over the winter months will not be impaired by road conditions, which has made securing work in Lucknow difficult, while living in Kincardine, plus not having the money to get a place in Lucknow, has made regular employment not feasible. Plus, there is the cost of running and maintaining Dad’s car to get me and him where we need to go.

The net results are:
1. My body is recovering from the physically-exhaustive work of slugging thirty to forty pound product boxes for several hours at Zehrs because the years of not taking very good care of myself because I didn’t believe I was worth it was taking a rapid toll on my health
2. My work ethic, confirmed by the staff at Zehrs, who saw what a hard-worker I am and reminded me too, means I am putting all my energy into generating enough money for me to not only pay my debts but to afford the lifestyle I am capable of living … with honesty, integrity and a high level of Respect for myself and others
3. That income will come in part from free-lancing writing, which I started to submit yesterday and which will pay $1.00 a word. I won an Honorable Mention award a few years ago, plus I have been published before, so this is not a pie-in-the sky idea
4. The other income will come from my global initiative, Connecting the Dots … with The RESPECT PRINCIPLE. I just launched a website, http://www.kaitlinatrepanier.com that links to my blog http://www.therespectprinciple.com. I am also on Twitter, Linked In and Facebook
5. The book release is targeted for October 15, 2013 which will generate a high ROI since I am going to publish the book under my own sole proprietorship, DARK HORSES PRODUCTIONS and I am in the process of securing sponsorship for the book and for a North American tour
6. The fee for me to speak to schools and organizations about how The RESPECT PRINCIPLE will benefit individuals and collectives is $350.00, plus taxes and if required, travel and accommodation expenses.
7. The fee for a school or group to purchase The SCHOOL PERFORMANCE PACKAGE, IS $650.00, plus taxes and if required, travel and accommodation expenses.
8. I’ve just launched The RESPECT PRINCIPLE LEGACY CONTEST, which schools can enter so their school is the first school to host and present the Connecting the Dots … with The RESPECT PRINCIPLE first SCHOOL PRESENTATION PACKAGE and for them to go down in history … leaving their legacy … of not only being the first school to host and present, but also of wanting to Raise the Respect Level of their school, community and their individual lives … which is a much better tactic for dealing with bullying and bystander behavior.

Now you know who I am, or at least, you have a much, truer picture. I am not out to screw anyone out of any money owed. On the contrary, I will take great satisfaction in not only repaying my current debts but those debts written off in bankruptcy years ago … for that has always been my intent. I just didn’t know when, but the time is drawing close … I just have to keep moving forward, being there for my Dad during his last months, while I also do work that provides me the flexibility and income to care for us both on all levels.

In summary, I will not be declaring bankruptcy for I will not do that to myself or to you because my Respect Level is now high enough to make that happen. Now you know all of this I trust you also know that when I have the money to repay you, I will repay you … with even more interest than what you expect.

In the meantime, if you see the benefit to your company and yourself of increasing people’s RESPECT LEVEL, then I invite you to contribute personally or to sponsor the global initiative, Connecting the Dots … with The RESPECT PRINCIPLE.

Thank you for treating me respectfully as a person doing her best to deal with the challenges life has presented me, as I am doing for you. Best wishes for your continued success based on the highest RESPECT LEVEL achievable …

Sincerely,
Kaitlin A. Trepanier

September 25, 2013
http://www.kaitlinatrepanier.com

All Rights Reserved by DARK HORSES PRODUCTIONS/KAITLIN A. TREPANIER, Connecting the Dots … with The RESPECT PRINCIPLE Developer, Author, Speaker, Playwright, Altruistic Entrepreneur, and Human Rights Activist … because every child should know, by their own experience, they are valued … RESPECTED